That was us as honeymooners in Fiji almost 6 years ago. We had about 10 months to ourselves before the kids hit and it all has been a whirlwind of life since then. My heart was full then and my heart is still full now. Fuller even! I am still completely in love with this man and choose to be so daily. He really makes my heart swell!
Don't get me wrong. There are fights. Some too painful to maybe even talk about in this space, but they are there. God is good and gracious in allowing us two sinners to choose to continue loving each other daily. When you have two sinners together, it ain't ever an easy thing!
Not sure what got me talking about all of this, but I must say there has been a jumble of things in my heart this weekend. Also, thinking about today's message (perfect timing for what was already stirring in my heart) at our church gathering of looking for the future glory and longing for that more than the present suffering.
A phrase that has been ringing in my heart is "live it well." Am I living this life well? Well isn't defined by how nice my house is, how many vintage collections I have, how much I enjoy my husband, how good my kids are or even how much I love them. Heck! It for sure isn't about my blog or my blog readership. Well is only defined by living for Christ. Letting my future hope in Christ define everything I do. I know I don't live that out for sure.
Today we sang a very familiar hymn and as we sang the line "Then sings my soul, my Saviour God, to thee, How great Thou art, How great Thou art." I realized my soul wasn't singing. I don't let that truth really sink deep into my soul. I need to. I ought to. I really do want my soul (not just my lips) to sing that line over and over again. I don't want my soul to sing for having a beautiful home, my children, my Ben, or even my blog, I want it to sing for God alone.
Thank you friends for tuning in to the ramblings of my heart and life in this space. You are all appreciated and I want all of you to live life well too.